As we know, I’ve been dealing with the chemo treatments pretty well – some nausea the week following, and of course, the hair loss, but other than that they’ve been going very well. Still, it’s easy to get discouraged. A week is a long time to be nauseated! That uncertainty of whether I’m actually hungry, or actually very nauseous…Whether the smell of what’s cooking in the kitchen will be enough to tempt my appetite, or enough to send me running to the bathroom.
And then, God sends a message straight from heaven. “You think you have it rough, eh?”
My dad came walking out of his office yesterday, having just got off the phone with an old friend of the family, Marc. Marc just told dad about a friend of his who’s 14 year old daughter was recently diagnosed with a similar form of cancer as what I was diagnosed with in February. Except that she has been re-hospitalized several times, due to her body reacting severely with some of the chemotherapy drugs. I went on to read her updates, and found myself in tears. They were overjoyed when she was able to go back to school. For a day. Me? I miss church once every three weeks. That’s about it. She had to get her braces removed, due to mouth sores. Not only did I have my braces off long ago, I’ve had no mouth sores whatsoever.
And so, I sit here at my computer, my stomach doing who-knows-what…and I’d really rather not think about it, to be honest (just the thought of the treatments cues an aerobatic routine that would put the Olympic gold medalist to shame!) …and yet, feeling almost guilty for feeling this way. Not quite…people’s bodies respond differently, and I know that…but why had God given me this seemingly so much easier path to walk down? Is it so that I can give testimony to His greatness? I’m certainly no better than she is…I don’t deserve an easier treatment. I don’t deserve the cure that my doctors expect.
Honestly, I don’t have the answers to any of these questions. All I can say is that I’m asking for your prayers for my new friend Skylar. She’s going through a lot – even more than I mentioned here… Let’s send some angels to wrap their wings around her and hold her close to the heart of God.